some friend of his :
haha ya ya.. so how old is li yin? say young not young, old not old.. haha.. is she wild?

bf:
shes becoming 20 in 1 wk time. haha. wild ar. u ask ur darling loh. LOL

SFOH :
wad wad? since now we chatting, u just tell me ba.. quick! psss..

bf:
she got a son since 16 le. LOL ( VERY FUNNY MEH WHAT LOL.. and tt doesnt mean im wild, its not answering her qns, i need you to know. then. i was so in love with niks father. so in love i bear his child for him. he was my first. not becos i slpt around or what tt resulted in my child. )

her:
huh..den u dun mind? Haha..anyway now still young, can enjoy dating la..wait till wanna settle down den find better one! Lol.. :X

Ps: just b careful of ur $ cos u too easy-going le.

( wtf.. ppl jus got into a r/s then and this is wad u can say... WTF. i may seem t be supporting everything on my own but i don cheat ppl money. esp my boyfrds one. more like everytym is my ex bf cheat on my $$. )

thn bf defended me ... and she goes on

bitch:
haha i'm just telling u e reality ma..now she's so young..nxt time sure different thinking ma..n who knws, u will find better one lor..

(hello! ppl is gettin attached not break. what find a better what? LAONIANG IS DEFINATELY BETTER THAN U. whats wrong wit me. im not ashamed at all. in fact im so proud of myself of what ive done n gone thru. its not a wei qu to be with me but ur honour. fucking stupid ppl cb so discouraging. )

then he just goes on and say don think so much,see how it goes.

IM TOTALLY PISSED. at ppl like her.

Im sick, sick of feeling inferior and fearing tt im not accepted by my bfs parents.
i don have any assurance and once a wk i have nightmares. ive no assurance abt my future, anything. i shuden be feeling this way.
I shud b proud of how far ive gone and cont to strive for the future.

Is my bf too gd for me? is any guy too gd for me?
in tt case i don mind jolly well be alone.

don wana think anymore. i don care.
if it doesnt work then fuck it.

For now, im in love with my Dearest Bf Zq.