Have always wanted to update but dint find the time to do so. Looking aft a kid on ur own is like working 24/7 except when hes slping or at school cos u cant depend on anyone else but yourself.

Planning to grab my late dinner/early supper wadever ltr so this will be a quick update w/o pictures. pictures in nx post hopefully.

Came bac frm a 4D3N holiday at krabi with dear. went on his bd... the several islands ard krabi was beautiful. love the waters & sands. seeing the pics just make me wana jump into the sea right now! Got an isolated but beautiful resort villa. Service der was top notch, personalised. You feel very at home cos it was very casual & the whole resort only had 17 villas. We finally had our own time & boy was i happy. I had all of his attention on me. no fb, no sms, no phone calls... all on me!

^_^ *happy girl* i love u bb!~ thanks for the trip. xoxoxo

Was a romantic & nice 3Nights spent tgt. Will leave behind beautiful memories for me ^_^

Night befre, nik & i waited for dear to end work to surprise him wit a cake... for his present got him the man u jersey with rooney printed on it..

Flying to BKK with mum & sis this coming wkend... Nik's not gg as i also not sure if bkk is still safe... gg der as mum wans to pray.

Planning for my upcoming 21st bd. Wanted to gather my best frds so decided to get a chalet but wanted something more classy so planning to book 2 nights at the aranda country club. close to my home as well. inviting only ard 12-14 friends. dose whom i hold closest to my heart. of cos i still rmb the other close frds just tt i wana be able to interact & entertain everyone i invited & not left anyone out. besides its nth big jus a gathering with food, drinks & games... ^_^

ok nik is rushing me to go make milk.... back agn!

Wanted to post some pictures now but timecheck 0340 hrs & ive got a full shift tml, waking up in 5hrs time so i shall do it on the nx post~

Working pt these 2 weeks at a boutique in raffles city. I LOVE this job cause its a female working environment, colleagues friendly ^_^

Slashing away the days on my calender to krabi. 11 more days. =)

Got some job openings, i heard frm friends, like recep at a insurance coy, paywise is great but its kinda far for me at novena, another one is as a recruitment consultant.. at raffles place, should i give it a try? But im really into looking for an office hr job, niks gg into primary sch in 2yrs time. i should be der. i donwana distant away frm him, cos when he gets older, i dont think i can bond so easily compared to bonding with him now.

Went partying at zouk on fri night, frd of mine signed me in. whole night was more like chit chatting with my frds.. cos phuture was too packed. went into velvet. first time! but sadly music der tt night sucked.

Was tired thou. was workin in the morn 10am to 9 pm then i rushed hm, make sure nik is tucked to bed.. then i left for zouk ( fyi i always do this when i party- to tuck him to bed ) before i leave tts why i always reach damn late like 11+, 12 +.. i know i shuden be partying so much but at least i made sure he slpt already + im cutting dwn now. =)

nx day suppose to go sentosa, woke up like 4 hrs later & realised it was raining, so i went back to slp for another hr or so, met up with besties (yel & vanessa), brot nik along, bf was der too.
Dear was holding a card in his hand, dint pass to me, aft awhile asked him wads tt told me its for me & dint allow me to read on the spot cos he was shy. haha
its our 8th mth anniversary tday ! ^_^
walked ard, caught up, had lunch...dear bot nik toys.. went hm, took a rest.. thn dear went off to mit his frds.
met bf agn at night, frog leg porridge & watched salt. So nice of him. to acc me & nik in the morning then at night came bac to dinner & movie with him. i love u!!!
while meetup with frends during afternn also thanks to him, cos nik was really notti and he helped to look aft him so i cud talk to my frds. =)

& i need to meet up wit vans & yel soon to do some window shopping, gossiping + eat nice food! i really love to eat =D

* like i mention agn when i twit i always seem emo.. esp sometimes abt r/s stuffs & frds will think smtg happened like fight or etc between clement & i but NO, its just my own insecurities. its not him, hes like the one guy tt u can so trust but im the paranoid one. so i tend to think alot... due to bad past experience. so sorry agn dear although u nv complain/unhappy but i feel so bad. =(


alrte getting draggy here, shall go to bed now, working full shift tml.!

Family.

I really dislike my stepfather. Hes not working/ contributing to the family & hes always eating my food out frm the fridge. Ytd he ate my bf's ben & jerry & even wanted to eat my lunch. *usu our food is left near the stove in the kitchen* & usu ive irregular meal times due to my working hrs. i don eat immediately so my mum usu leaves my meals in the kitchen & he will wan2 eat my food!!! & ytd i bot a can of 100+ for nik, put in the fridge, one hr later, gone. drank by him. fridge so many drinks he must drink my 100+.

Because hes useless so i cant stand it when my things are consumed by him! if it were my mum, not so bad. but him!!!! arghhhhh. this is the last straw man. fucking useless guy at home, so disrespect him.

Mum.

Just did her body check up & doc said she has diabetes & heart probs. heart probs probaby due to smoking cos shes a heavy smoker .. I'm so worried abt her. although im not v close to her. as in i don share my probs to her etc etc. but i really care i really care abt my mum. she matters so much to me. cant help crying when i think abt the future. when her savings are all used up trying to support this home.

My own future is unclear, ive to support nik. i wan to support my mum too but at the moment i can only help this much.

sigh.